HOLY SHIT!!! June has got to be the worst month of 2009 and i'm glad the month have passed by.

first off, David Carradine, the famous actor from the Kung Fu series and Bill from Kill Bill passed away on the first week of June! i know this is old news but whatever. to me it was to be expected since he was getting old. but when news came around, he was found dead in a closet room....while being hanged. many thought he committed suicide while others think that he was performing an erotic, fetish art of strangulation. (this weird type of fetish of hanging yourself is an actual erotic turn on for the type of ppl who enjoy somewhat close to S&M but more beyond then that. and believe, i'm come across these types of obscure sexual acts.) but whatever his reason of doing this, i'm going to missed him. i remember him from watching his later series of Kung Fu: the Legend Continues up until Kill Bill. that's how i come to know about him and it's a damn shame for him to die like this.

also, i mention about my Graduation Ceremony that took place at the Georgia World Congress Center. i consider this an up and down experience for me. it was the proudest moment of my life but it was fucking annoying in the beginning. mostly because i had to go to the location at an early time, and sure enough i arrive too early. finding the right parking space was a hassle since i had to pay 8$to park. one graduate i came across had to pay $10 for parking. some woman who was organizing the ceremony pissed me off by telling me that i arrive too early. (GEEZ, LIKE I NEEDED SOMEBODY TO TELL ME THAT!! >_<!!) but later on, i meet up w/ my friends who were graduating, i receive my plague portfolio for my diploma (even though it doesn't have the actual degree but i receive it by mail a week later), my family and relatives came to see me graduating along w/ my bandmates, i mingle w/ my alumni friends for a bit, and left off to have lunch w/ my family and friends which i fucking hated since i all i wanted to do is go home!!!!! i'm not going any more details since all i care about is getting the degree, talking w/ old friends, and that's it!! my family pushed me to going to one more family outing that i didn't give a rat's ass about and gone to my friend's place to get fucking drunk as hell in a long time! god, what a fucking day that was. =_____=;;;

Chris if you're reading this, thnx for the talk and for the hard liquors. it's been months since i've gotten drunk so heavily in a while.

and lastly, this is when the biggest shit has to hit the fans from all around! Ed McMahon, Michael Jackson, Farrah Fawcett, and Billy Mays, all die during the last two weeks of June! UNFUCKINGBELIEVABLE!!! on the day when MJ and Fawcett died, i was hanging out w/ Alex (42111) to go watch Transformers 2 and that kinda balanced out all the crazy shit that was happening. but to top it all off, Billy Mays had to died before the end of June! *long frustrated sighing*

oh shit, well this is all i got to say since that's all i can think about right now. right now i fear the worst has yet to come for July. who knows, right now i'm watching all of Michael Jackson's music videos.

RIP to David Carradine, Ed McMahon, Michael Jackson, Farrah Fawcett, and Billy Mays, we'll missed you all. TT_TT

well, i still can't find a damn full time or part time job at this moment. nothing has turn up and my job search have kept on going to certain ones that are either too good to be true and/or a complete scam! i will keep on trying and fighting my way of finding whatever job i can pull off. since i suck at working at fast food joints, i'm going towards working at some book store like Barnes & Noble or Borders.

and plus, right now i'm thinking of quitting on the radio show of Tech Talk w/ the JustAddWaterCats. i enjoy being on the talk show but if i ever going to get a job that requires me to work full time thru out the whole week, then i have make this sacrifice in order to proceed on of getting work. whether it's doing Illustration jobs or some type of labor work, i need this badly. so this week or the next, i'm may be announcing myself of making my last appearance on the radio talk show and moving on finding a full time job.

speaking of Illustration, i haven't pick up any illustration job yet. cause my skills are lacking and i'm admitted lazy right now. but since i've joined up w/ Insightful Minds on DA, i'm putting effort into getting some sort of project together for the group. i'm considering this as my illustration work out since my brain hasn't come up w/ anything creative after my portfolio show graduation. it's time to get back on the sketch book and draw something.

also, on saturday June 20, i will be joining up w/ the rest of my AiA alumni friends for the Graduation Ceremony. it's going to take place at the Georgia World Congress Center - Building A 285 Andrew Young International Blvd., N.W. Atlanta. this is the address so look it up for directions of getting there. to everybody that i know who have graduated from the end of March to this summer's graduation, i'll be seeing you there. and to everybody else, come join us to this ceremony!

that's all for today and thnx for reading this! ;D

alright, i've been doing a lot of work that got me occupied thru-out the whole month of April. from cleaning up my room, finding a job, and working on the radio....which i'm not getting paid for. >.<

right after the Portfolio show and hanging out w/ Alex, i spend the few days of relaxing and immediately started cleaning up my room for the first time in a long since i repainted my whole room in gray color. i'm this close of reorganizing everything the way i've wanted. this time, i've finally make room for my computer and computer desk to be in my room finally. for a long time it's been place where i play my drumset if any of you have watch my drum solo videos. now it's a matter of placing a lot of the little things in the right place and storage. which btw, i'll be posting up a video of my room cleaning process sooner or later on my youtube page.

also, while cleaning and reorganizing of all of my stuff, i've been out on a part-time job hunt. so far, no luck. from where i'm living right now fucking sucks! but i'm keeping my spirit up for a possible part time job right now. but as for my real job as an Illustrator, it's going have to wait. cause i'm actually not interested in finding a one time job or a design company for doing certain illustrations at the moment. i want to but lately i just don't feel the urge to do so.

i know it's very important to get yourself off the ground and start pursuing your career right away but i'm not feeling it now. and i know that my college education of being a professional illustrator has to be put into good use but for me, i'm still working my on craft of becoming the artist that i want to be. i'm thinking about going towards the type of artist that express his/her work in their own way, not the commercial way. and it's not about being a sellout or anything, i'm working my way of being an artist in my own rights. pretty much, i'm being an independent agent who does his own thing w/o approval from what the mainstream art market has to say.

but for the time being, i'm currently part of a radio show cast of Tech Talk w/ the Just Add Water Cats on WREK 91.1 FM. you can catch us only on Thursday 6-7 pm. i'm infamously known as "Hung Kung Phuuey". i didn't came up w/ that name, they did! the crew of Just Add Water Cats consist of Jay (JustAnotherYokel), Corey (The Incredible Sulk), Anthony (Blackie), and Mario (M.A.C.). here are the links to check us out on our myspace and youtube: [link] and [link]

so yeah, that's my progress and my feelings towards the direction i'll be following. i can't say when will i ever land myself in a permanent job doing commercial artwork or going solo on my own. whatever how i'm feeling right now, i'm still finding myself out there. also, for my deviations, i know i've haven't post anything much lately for a while now, but i got a lot of things to work out. in the meanwhile, i'm on a job hunt for a part time job. and is all i have to say.

Ok! yesterday was the most frantic, finest, and proudest moment of my entire life! after 4+ years of going to college, it has finally come to an end w/ my portfolio presentation and getting some contacts and business cards from possible clients and job offerings. in other words, i've finally graduated and ready to move on w/ my life as an Illustration Artist!!! yyyeeeaaahhhh!!!

i've already came close of waking up half way late getting to my school despite the heavy rain and traffic. and went on w/ the portfolio show w/o my website on the mac since i thought i was late to pick up the website from my friend Nick but turns out that he got stuck in traffic and was late. but the show went on very nicely and i got my business contacts and it was over! me and everyone of my classmates have succeeded and graduated!

i've never been so happy in my life and realizing that, looking back now of my past life, i've achieved my goals and pass on thru w/ a lot of hard work and determination! and i'm proud of myself and looking forward to my new chapter in my life.

also, i want to thank those who have supported, motivated, inspired, and been thru hell w/ me thru-out the years going to that school, thank you to all of my teachers who have guided me thru my studies, and a big thank you to Nick for helping me w/ my website! you're the best, bro! thank you all and i hope we will stay in touch for a long time.

Portfolio Setup 3/26/09 [link]
Portfolio Setup and Awards 3/26/09 [link]
Portfolio Show 3/27/09 [link]
One Last Trip down in Memory Lane 3/27/09 [link]
Goodbye AIA [link]

Speed Painting: Diving Splash [link] (this is part of my 3 painting series that was added on to my portfolio)

a few more weeks left of school and i'm on the verge of graduating out of AiA for good! shit, i can't believe i've manage to survived long enough just to get where i am. i never thought that i would ever get to the end but i'm almost there. and i gotta say, i'm proud to go thru hell to get my bachelor's degree in Illustration & Design. i've work hard to get to this point, and i gotta pulled it off right!

i came close of dropping out after 2 years of being in Media & Animation major when i first started. i give out my thnx to Geoff for convincing me to switch to a different major, to stay in school, and get thru the worst. even though, Geoff have dropped out long ago because the major he was in didn't meet his expectations, he still encourage me to keep on going w/ the new major and i certainly did.

and plus, thnx to the support of my friends who were there for me and to make my life at AiA to be more interesting and fun to go to everyday. i pretty much get to do things that i was never able to do. such as going to my first anime convention, partying out every now and then, and recently, going to a radio show w/ "The Just Add Water Cats"! i'm known as Hung Kung Phooey! XD check out the group and the radio show on this link here, be sure to go to their blog and download the recent online show: [link]

honestly, to all of my friends who are on here reading my journal now, thank you all!! you have my the best 4 plus years going to AiA and you're the best friends i ever have. you're far more better friends then the ones i know from my old high school. which i'm disappointed to say, they have reduced themselves to having no achievements or important goals in their life. and thnx to them, they make me feel very insignificant of what i want to do in life. so for this, i'm no longer care or show any concerns about them anymore. cause you guys have inspired me to succeed in life and that's what important to me. i love u all!

now for the important part, Portfolio class is really getting me nailed down on very thing right now. along w/ Art Direction and my previous unfinished projects that i failed on last quarter. right now i'm making them up for it so i can get a grade change and pass, hopefully. so as of now, i'm still progressing and working my ass off like fucking hell!! this will be my hardest quarter that i have face thru my 4 plus years! so pray that i'll get thru it......hopefully. @_@

well that's all i have to say.